I didn't think it was rational or positive at all. He suffers constant feelings of helplessness and inadequacy that permeate his every word. He is irrationally fearful and mistrustful. He's a misanthorpe--though I bet he wouldn't call himself that, because he'd rather blame himself than blame humanity, such that he would rather go to the grave than risk therapy... and his utterly twisted view of his fellow man led him to hide his problems until he dumped it all out in a way such that he wouldn't have to deal with the consequences he so feared, because he'd be dead.

The real burn is that he not only didn't want to put his rapist in jail, but was terrified of any steps that might remotely end up in that possibility. It's certainly very sad, but it's also, not to mince words, fucking cowardice that might even lead to seeing this tragedy repeated.

I don't want to be harsh, but we cannot cannot cannot talk about this stuff as positive or rational at all. Because it not only isn't, but these patterns of thought are extraordinarily dangerous to someone who might think they are rational.